*sigh*...

shit why the hell am i writing here... no one reads this shitz ne wayz...fuk....

grades are sucking rela bad.... out of tennis team..... friends seem like they are farther away.... buisness is sucking .... family is a mess....too much hw.... cant go out with friends... no real social life.. im such a loser... and to top all that off.. my head is hurting.... -_-

why is life against me... its not fair..... why the hell is life so unfair....

words cannot describe the way im feeling... no way to get out... no way to... only certain cures can be found within the heart...but not from the person... who is feeling the pain... but why cant people understand...

damn im fukin pissed as fuk... shit i am like not playin tennis ne more i gues cause i lost one game pretty bad.... i was waitin to get played against a skoo that i thought i could win and ended up not playin... i remember the coach said that everyone usually plays at home games... but ended up not playin ... ARGH... and not only that... im at the bottom of the fukin team and shit... and im pretty sure im better than sum pplz... MAybe it might have been because i havnt gone to practice cause of family problems... but ive only played 4 games and won 3 and lost 1.... just one FUKIN game i had a bad day on .... and there has been grips of games so far.... and i thought u were supposed to play to get better.... and i dont think im THAT bad and jus cause i had a bad day doesnt mean the coach should look at me like shit.... and i am in the coach's club and was in her class last year so i kinda know her good and she still makes me mad.... and one of the best players on JV throws his racket and shit when he loses... and she doesnt kick him off the team or nuttin... if i did that she would like tell me the get the hell out of the team ... i jus wish i had half the respect she gives him...

wow.. it looks like i havnt updated in a long time >.<... well i couldnt get any good quizillla stuffs cause they all mostly gay -_-;;

im kinda disapointed in myself cause i got only a 3.14 G.P.A. on my semster report card T.T.... but i have 2 AP classes and one honors that were all C's and my my honors class i had a 79.3 and THE TEACHER GAVE ME A C!!! -_-.... pissed me off for a bit... but im plannning on doing much better this semester...

im doing tennis at school now and its pretty fun ^.^;;..... and i need it to try to get into a collage or university of my pick... which im counting on doing... but its not bad (except the fact that on my first day i hit a couple balls over the fence which i had to get T.T)... and i feel so crapy compared to all the good tennis players... but im better than like 1/3 of the time now...talk bout a sucky team huh... lol..

i heard a new saying that really made me think.... " Goals can come true and be achieved ..... but dreams cannot..."... i mean like people say... "my dream is to become a doctor" or "my dream is to be a millionare"... but if you think about it... thats only a big goal... o.O... or maybe im doing too much thinking -_-...

well thats it for this update and i'll try to update sooner this time... (not like anyone cares -_-)... leave propz if you want...